Mary Baker (Carmley)

Paula a beautiful young woman, a beloved daughter, sister, niece, and cousin but most importantly a mother that loved her kids, no matter how bad her situation was or the circumstances she faced whether she chose some of them or not the love for them was never relinquished. She was taken too soon and so young but I believe God took her home to save her from herself and the demons, struggles and pain that had a hold of her and she wasn't able to flee. I love you Paula and you will be missed, you will be missed by more than you could have ever known I will always remember you as my first niece, that baby I threw away my dolls for, I will never forget how happy I was because there was a real baby around and I could play dress up putting different clothes on you and your arms and legs would actually bend which was so much easier than a doll! You was always smiling, acting silly and so cute you were my real life babydoll and I remember I really thought that! I also remember I would get so mad at my sister Becky because she would always have to be the one holding you- all the time when she was around and I was younger than her so she always won and I felt it was so unfair at that time, I remember one time she was at school and I was home for some reason you came over with your mama and I was happier than you could ever imagine because I got you all to myself and didn't have to worry about her getting you! She sure did love babies I bet you already found her in heavens nursery but if you haven't check there I'm sure you'll find her in there holding a baby! There are so many good memories of you from baby to adult that I will cherish, I can still hear you say " I love you Aunt Mary" that is how I will remember you I am so sorry for the hurt, struggles and traumatic things you have had to face and endure from the cruelty of this world especially the pain of what you had lost., I know some may have thought different of your love for your babies but they didn't have to walk in your shoes didn't truly know your heart or face the struggles you were faced with, so the thoughts they may have had were wrong But know there were others that did know the love you had and the pain and anguish you suffered from it I wish we could have been close like we used to be and my heart hurts for that but circumstances wasn't on our side but I never ever stopped loving you and thought of you often and I promise you will never be forgotten I love you Paula Lillian Ford and always will - Aunt Mary (Carmley) Baker